I shouldn’t be surprised, any time any family from Mark’s has said they will help, they don’t. I think because I am weak & still trying to gain strength I believed this buffoon, and once again a deep disappointment. We do have enough funds for a sparing Christmas, hopefully not to take on debts, and then cover our bills…but everything is still daunting. My prayers are that A & A’s townhome will sell soon and we can begin to recover our depleted funds. 

 It’s a new day…I can barely function. I’m trying to let the logic of the monthly income which does meet the need, help me see that it will work out. I did manage to make sure I purchased 2 grand children Christmas presents…I’ll consider that a win. 

 

 Moved again… now living with youngest daughter and family. This was to be a place of family to help me recover from cancer, sadly it is not. I live in constant fear…emotionally and physically. It always revolves around expenses. Their townhouse sale fell through and instead of paying less we needed to pick up and pay the entire rent. We have just enough to squeak by, but it only increases my fears. I am once again living in panic, that does nothing but overwhelms me with fear. Every night I pray and beg God to let me die…I am sad

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