Home from our staycation at Disney’s Caribbean Beach Resort. It was wonderful to be with Amy and her family and David with his. Saturday had rain on and off…there was lightning and thunder, the pools closed, but David arrived, got them settled and had a wonderful dinner. After dinner we went to the pool in the evening, it was cool, a bit humid, yet oh so pretty. Sunday, the 4th of July went well. Did some shopping in the morning, had a lovely breakfast, then dashed to the pool…Amy had her heart set on a table with an umbrella…it was perfect. I went, got my swimsuit on, sprayed a TON of sunscreen on me…sat under the shade, but did go into the pool. I did is bit of water exercises, especially for my arm, felt good too. Even with all the sunscreen I got quite a sunburn, so today my back, front, shoulders hurt, but by tomorrow it should be better. The threat of hurricane Elsa, but she changed to a tropical storm. I am not happy about learning that Florida is really tropical…it’s quite rainy in the summer. No more summer vacations here for us, it’s too unpredictable. I am concerned if we don’t work hard at being a family, everyone will part from each other, not on purpose but because it’s so difficult to get together. We are leaving to visit Dave on Saturday July 24th, just for one night to celebrate Tiffany’s birthday then come back Sunday night. We visit them again August 11 through the 14th. AJ is now at work, on his orientation cycle…we pray daily that this will be a good place for him, there is opportunity to grow and do other things rather than just truck driving. He will be working Tuesday through Saturday having Sunday and Monday off. They work every day of the year including holidays, so he will be working all holidays. This was a huge blow to Rylee, having him work,  but maybe something can change. 

Do I like Florida yet…no not really. It’s like living in a foreign country. The weather is a huge obstacle do to the heat and humidity. My balance is now really challenging because the barometric changes are often and dramatic. I am trying to find the good in my situation, so far nothing is standing out.

Tomorrow is Esther’s birthday, she’ll be 42. I feel so old, not a good old too…I thought I would have a better old age season, so again another huge disappointment. It seems to me that there are just one disappointment built on another, no real reprieve…it’s daunting. I don’t want to buy anything because the weather here is awful, so I feel this terrible unsettled feeling, nothing permanent. Our apartment is nice, but I don’t have any outdoor space, not that we could use it in this horrible weather coming and again with the heat…but at the resort the one evening was really lovely and I did like that. I have to absolutely get a grip on my living situation or I’ll again be overwhelmed with sadness.

All the girls played nicely on the trip, Hezekiah was adorable and my favorite part was how well Dave and Amy conversed and had fun. Please God, let this continue…please help us to continue to grow close as a family.